goodbye; it ends with this.

let go

2010-06-03T23:00:00.002+08:00

Stop accusing me of lying when I'm not
Please, just stop...

I'm already feeling misery 'cause you are feeling miserable
I don't wanna have you aggravate my emotions into anger.

wedding dress

2010-06-03T18:37:00.003+08:00

I've never lied to you
'cept for the white lies so you wouldn't worry
Whether I'm hungry, tired or sad...

I couldn't switch with you even though I wanted to.
My project's not started.

So today, you called me a liar. Again.

I've never told you I've finished it...
You probably misread or misunderstood my words, as always...

It hurt.

I hope you're asleep right now.
Otherwise... I'd hurt even more.

breaking inside

2010-06-01T14:38:00.001+08:00

Sad to say this, boy
I'm afraid we won't last for long

You can't fix me when I'm ripping at the seams
What happens when I fall apart?

Maybe we're looking for different people in us.

letter from a thief

2010-05-27T20:16:00.002+08:00

We are gonna end up hurting each other
You more than me.

I can feel it.

tonight

2010-05-23T19:02:00.002+08:00

I think my GPA is gonna plunge this semester.

Projects, presentations, projects, presentations ^n
Massive hate for them

Have been sleeping in class for the majority as well...
Ugh, I need to start sleeping early again

FML

my heart is a fist

2010-05-20T19:36:00.001+08:00

You ask me what's wrong

I wonder how you'll react if I tell you what's truly bothering me

losing

2010-05-20T16:52:00.000+08:00

I'm losing interest in school
It's no good.

consequence

2010-05-18T22:07:00.001+08:00

Am I gonna face the consequence of liking you?

A month we shall see
If I was used and manipulated by you.

good things come to an end

2010-05-18T00:00:00.003+08:00

Can't help but wonder
if you'll ever like me more than I you.

Because...

You say your feelings for me grows each day
Mine does as well, for you.

tell me goodbye

2010-05-17T19:14:00.002+08:00

I keep crying over and for you
By just thinking

I went home, barely holding onto my tears
My eyes were red and damp

I keep forcing a smile for you
You barely notice

When you do

"I'm fine :D" is enough

you

2010-05-16T11:37:00.001+08:00

I missed you so much yesterday

I reread our messages, I cried

You were busy with poker

:[ Ihy.

stupidity

2010-05-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

I feel awfully dumb now.

You've never said the words.

No If's

2010-05-15T12:35:00.003+08:00

Blur Smurf, I wonder if you're still sleeping.

I thought I'd wake up much later than you, but it seems you're the one instead.

Silly.

I still don't trust you with my heart yet.

yours

2010-05-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

Yet I still can't speak my mind.

fallin for you

2010-05-13T18:45:00.001+08:00

Just when I've decided to give up on you

You turn around and mess with my thoughts

Now I'm undecided and confused again.

koko ni iru yo

2010-05-08T19:53:00.003+08:00

I hate what's troubling you cause I can't do anything

And I hate how you like toying with my heart and not knowing what it does to me

scream

2010-05-07T21:50:00.001+08:00

I don't like to go off before you

But it's always so late

And it makes me sleepy :@

not yet

2010-05-04T22:00:00.001+08:00

Reach home safe.

Made my evening feel exceptionally better.

I got tired waiting.

as a man II

2010-05-03T20:46:00.002+08:00

T'is Bittersweet.

Boy.

Let's remain strangers.

as a man

2010-05-03T02:05:00.002+08:00

Tonight is the first night without our nightly conversations.

It feels weird.

real emotion

2010-04-30T18:40:00.004+08:00

You probably don't know this, boy.

No matter what you do always affect me so.

It's as if you're the Sun and I'm the Earth revolving around you.

When you're upset, I feel miserable.

When you're happy, I feel estatic.

Boy, am I pathetic around you.

under my skin

2010-04-15T21:22:00.003+08:00

I'm updating again after god knows how long. Only because I can't bottle up these emotions anymore. I need to get this out of my system before I break (not that it really helps).

I'm so unhappy in this hole I've dugged myself in to. Perhaps if I'd never thought to change myself, this wouldn't have happened. But this change has brought on so many positive turns in my life, so this shouldn't be the factor. So I shall blame all this on my decision to join the most retarded CCA. Ever.

Personally, I think that there's nothing from with the CCA itself. It's for a good cause anyway. Environment issues are something that I've concerned myself with since it's everyone's problems. Problems arises with the discoordinated, disorganised and forceful-under-pretenses people-with-power that this CCA has the misfortune to be associated with. And not only that, people who are rude, bossy, has problems with their attitudes and leaves other people out of the loop when it shouldn't be so. Because of these I have gotten into trouble which wasn't mine to begin with, decisions made with friends have also been compromised.

Unhappiness. Unwillingness.

So many times I've thought of quitting; ending this farce.

But I shan't. I shan't give them the satisfaction.

I'm not a quitter; never a quitter.

So I won't break.

I won't cry.

one by one we fall

2009-07-28T16:35:00.002+08:00

So, I had my 2.4 km run today. Now I'm feeling like jello. *scowls*

I know I haven't posted anything for the past few days, but hey, who's keeping track? I don't have much to say about in regards to the days I've not posted so, I'm just gonna touch on what happened today. So boohah.

*the following paragraph has been deleted 'cause apparently I can get expelled for it* >_>

I wonder where's her Toto.

Anyway back on track, we touched on Business Ethics on BSE today. So it got me thinking, will I actually do well on this unit 'cuz what my teacher taught us today were all information that were drilled into me by my father. (Whoever's doing business will never be entirely good or bad. They'll always be in the shade of grey. And money is always the root of all evil... You catch my drift?) So hm, maybe. High possibility. No?

Last lesson for the day was PE. Which sucked royally for me. Like what I've said above, I had to run my 2.4 km, which was really eventful. *dry sarcasm* Seriously. So like, I had to run 4 and a half rounds round the school compound, and on my second round, I fell. Yes, babe. I fell. Thankfully, it was a grass patch I fell on so there's no injury on my leg. Two of my classmates cheated. They cut through the school compound, and ended up finishing the run before me. Meh I don't care anyhoos.

Right before we were released from school, my PE teacher decided to sort us into three groups. And yadddaaaaaaaaa. Not gonna elaborate.

So that's the end of my very eventful day!

I think I hurted my left knee. It hurts.

demise start to bloom

2009-07-20T18:40:00.003+08:00

School was boring. As per usual.

Woke up today feeling extremely lethargic. Still, I managed to, somehow, lug my heavy body up and drag it to the bathroom. And to school, eventually.

First period was Communication for Business, acronym-ed COB. Like COBweb, you know? Okay, not funny. I know. It was, pretty much, a free period since the teacher was at the i'Delite Mastery Room filming the roleplays for our CA 2. We were supposed to be doing research on our CA 3, but... who gives? Feeling a little anxious for my group's roleplay on Wednesday. We aren't fully prepared. Actually, we aren't prepared at all. So I'm just going to wing it. If I fail, I fail. If I pass, I pass. Who gives? I do. But I can't bring myself to be bothered by it. We were supposed to be filming our roleplay tomorrow, but one of my team mate's fell sick. So we're pushed down a day. Thankfully.

So after the COB was lunch break, nothing much. Followed by Office Application, OFA. I'm done with the entire book. So I'll prolly have nothing to do for the next lesson on Wednesday. After which was Principles of Accounting, POA. We had to do this short assignment (it's just a fancy word for short test, really) on Balance Sheet.

Which was a breeze, of course. *ego inflats*

And finally, my favorite time of the day, Home Sweet Home.

Wow. Ain't my life exciting?

Seriously. I wish I could just skip through this period of my life like in Click, you know? I ~~still have a bunch of pent up emotions which I'm incapable of expressing in words~~ just yet. So when they want to be known, I shall vent all I can on my nifty lil blog.

Or maybe not.

so why am i still looking back?

2009-07-18T21:10:00.003+08:00

I made a new blog. For no apparent reasons. Which is pretty darn sad, imo.

Oh, I lost my phone in June. ~~*mourns the loss of her Samsung Tocco*~~ So now I have this hot pink Sony Ericsson T707. Which isn't too shabby. I just miss having a touch phone.

And, I'm not bothered to blog in full just for now. So when I am, I'll lengthen this post.

Which is probably... never.